It's funny how that ego that I just want even blocks out and almost abuses the people that are actually caring for you as well.
You can't see it though can you?
No. You can't see it till you see it I think.
Yeah it's true and I think it would have probably taken a lot longer had I not stuck close to my program and stuck close to the people that support me. The people that have had those experiences, been through the same sort of thing and that are you know very grounded in their own lives in recovery that I stick close to and speak to because you're right sometimes I can't see it. I say it all the time the healthy mirrors, healthy mirrors because without them I really would be screwed.
But again it's like always like this is that love is forgiving and if you're really not giving you're really not loving. This whole program becomes about that ultra realism, it's about what do I contribute to the world and being able to see where you know that I do have a responsibility to people.