Kelly reflects back on the court decision to remove her children from her care. The first step to rebuilding what is broken is to first admit that it is broken at all.

Kelly

When we went to court for the children to be removed, I was already in rehab. So in my mind, it was going to be great and I was in rehab, and they were going to let me have the children, and it didn't go like that.

There was a letter that was given to the judge to say that my history was so entrenched that they had to be removed until they were 18. There was no way, even though...

Lester

So it was a write-off?

Kelly

Write-off. Social Services wrote me off.

Lester

There was no pathway back?

Kelly

The court order while I was in rehab was a guardianship over the children until they're 18. So they're not to be in my care. But I remember in that court case, I'd learnt a lot about honesty in rehab. You know, emotionally neglecting your children, all the things that they were accusing me of, it was all right. So for the first time, I walked into that courtroom with my hands in the air and I said, you're right, I failed my children.

Lester

But I guess that's kind of like, again, you saying that, it's kind of like taking responsibility, but that's also the first step to becoming responsible as well, isn't it?

Kelly

Yeah, massively.

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